The feeling of pain.

Too long not crying? Or I start to love the feeling of crying? but why cant I stop it ? Am I too weak? yup I am! I am tired. Every time cry I learn more. This time I learn. Not to go in to a relationship too deep. Leave in the right time. Never stay too long. I wanted to leave . But why it since so difficult for me? Why loving u make me suffer? Can it be more blissful?? i am happy. Watching you being so cold to mi. because of him. do u believe? i wont make any more trouble for u . i wont be your stress. i will leave a space for you. i will just smile to you. i will tell you i am happy. can u tell mi you miss mi? can you tell me you miss my hug? i knew the ans will be "NEVER".