"she ask mi what did i do these few days?? i told her i am happy.. laughing every day. she say : really ?? dun lie. i told her i am strong. she say she wan mi to be happy. i told her " of cos la...don need her to worry". she say she will still worry i told her don need please." luckily i had control it. i did not show out how emo i am. i think she will feel more better now. luckily i did not say those stupid thing. but do u noe how pain it is ? asking mi those Q ? make mi to fake those word out of my mouth. make mi cry like a silly. it's like you wan to watch mi die slowly infront of u. but is ok. wish that my fake smile can really make you smile too. i was damn regret every day . waiting for your text like a silly. i watch those text you had send mi. thinking over and over. suffer over and over. even i know miracle do not exist. i had stop it. stop asking " do you have any thing to tell mi or ask mi " that is wat i ask every day in the past. but i had stop it . but i am happy. believe it. every body thot i am happy, thot i had forget. believe it. i am helplessness now. crying in the darkness,is a punishment.that u nv know. i don need your pity. ---> day go good. when working with kok wei. day go better when ken meet kok wei. joke is all around. laughing the whole day. haahahaha, my life in white is not bad. today went to town shop with angelia. i bought some thing that i love. 2 pant and a converse shoes. that total cost mi $130 ++ actually wanted to buy more. but have to buy present for that gal. is ok. life will go better !! for you